Take It Easy On Me.. This Is My First Time..

Go easy on me, I've never done this before! But, I like the idea of being able to talk about things and get opinions back. MAYBE. If it's at all interesting. My first thought was to post this poem that I wrote a couple months ago. I'm going to have to add some explanation though, bare with me, it's a very 'that's so highschool' story...

About a year ago, I started dating this guy, Dustin. It was a typical teenage relationship, with both of us making stupid mistakes, breaking up, getting back together, all that jazz. Well, this other guy, Travis, who I was absolutely CRAZY!! about when I was a freshman (I'm curently going to be a senior) well he decides to stick his big nose in my relationship and mess it up. He would text me all the time telling me how much he cared about me and wanted to be with me. Naturally I LET him do this. But, the bad thing is, I started falling for him all over again. I made some stupid mistakes and started hanging out with Travis behind Dustin's back. This went on for about 2 months. Some nights, I would talk some sense into myself and tell Travis that I couldn't do it anymore, we had to stop. I always told him that I loved him and we would be togther, but on certain nights I would tell him it was over. This tore him apart, he was depressed at school and everybody always told me how much he talked about me and how much he wanted to be with me. This kid is CUTE and SWEET; he could have any girl he wanted. But, he wanted me. Awww?? So Cute?? Well, this messed my life up and confused the hell out of me. Which guy did I want to be with!? I'll cut to the chase; I broke up with Dustin and dated Travis. I'm currently with Travis and I'm content with my life. Everything has settled down.

This is a poem I sent Travis one night when I was extremely upset and thinking about my whole situation(excuse the capitalization, i sent it via facebook and that's just a little pizazz i add to my facebook posts):

There's This Girl

Her Name Of No Importance

Who Cares About this Boy

But She Never Makes Sense

One Second They're Okay

The Next They're Fighting

She Doesn't Know What To Do

Never Knows What To Say

To Tell Him The Truth

Would Be To Lie To Another

But What Can She Do

If They're Meant For Each Other

Admitting How She Feels

Breaks Both Their Hearts

Nothing Ever Changes

It Only Falls Apart

They Pick Up The Pieces

They Make Things Alright

But It Never Really Lasts

Any Longer Than a Night

How Long Will This Continue?

Will It Ever End?

The Cycle Only Continues

Over And Over Again

One Night Its Okay

The Next Torn Apart

Put It Back Together

And Then They Restart